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Dated November 27, 2009. [Fri] jackjeckel1002 "DEP Recruit Martinez: Although you have shown a great deal of dedication by enlisting in your country's Navy, we regret to inform you that you have been discharged due to medical reasons". It just keeps going. So there goes plan A. sucks. If it wasn't for my knee injury prior to my ship date, I would be off somewhere doing something I've been wanting to do for some time now. Something I consider important. It really made me sad. Probably why I've been distant from people for quite some time. I was in denial about it since I was medically evaluated at MEPS a month before my ship date. Oh well. It happened for a reason I suppose. Luckily, it didn't catch me off-guard. I already have a steady job, pays alright, with good benefits. I'm starting my other career. Which is also good I guess. I was told I can re-enlist when I heal up, and get cleared from a doctor. I might take them up on that offer. Half a year ago I was doubting myself. I was thinking, maybe this wasn't all I wanted to do. Maybe, all that was happening to me was some sort of paradox. A sign that I shouldn't leave. The type you end up feeling you possible made a mistake. It could be. I don't know. I'd end up yesterday's war statistic, according to people. I highly doubt that. I was non-combat. But then again so were the people in Texas. =/ May they rest in peace. During this whole deal I got really into capoeira. Until my knee gave away. Something about hyper-extending something, and some small pox, yellow fever, Arthritis somewhere, polio. I don't know. I'm not a doctor, and I didn't go to one. lol Maybe we'll see what's up. I've been healing for about 6 months now. Stopped doing strenuous activities. Watching how I step. How I move around. Working out on my own. Working on my weaknesses to make me stronger. Comment?

Let Me Tell You Where I've Been. [Thu] bellatragedia [ mood | cheerful ] I came to a few realizations the other night while hanging out with Genesis and Derek after I left Robert for being a dense idiot of a boyfriend [why bother to ask me to be your girlfriend if you're going to treat me like you haven't made your mind up about it?]. One of them? I give way too many people, especially boyfriends, way too much credit. Most of you [general "you," no one in specific] are just dense, unappreciative, unthinking, and unfeeling. How can I expect you to be better than what you are if you're nothing to begin with and have no desire to raise yourself up from your ridiculous ignorance? But of course my relations fail! You're so far beneath me! Needless to say, it was liberating. I had spent hours trying to be apathetic about the whole situation and I ended up succeeding. I truly reached the point where nothing mattered. Nothing was good nor bad, it just was. I came out of this state when Derek played It's Pimpin' Pimpin by Katt Williams. I laughed myself into hysterics and felt so incredible thereafter. I have maintained this good mood. And in the mean time? I have an underwater photographer to lay me out on the sailboat ;] Still collecting applications for other lovers as well, by the way, but fuck boyfriends. I'm too gorgeous and young and vibrant to waste myself on just one of you at a time who won't even know what he has when he has it. I was given a job for a day last weekend reading out children's workbooks. I a expecting about 600 dollars for that 17 hour day I pulled soon. Money doesn't mean much of anything to me, but since its needed in this world, it feels so good to finally have this money coming in, even if it is a one time thing. They loved my voice so then again, maybe it won't be and I really hope so. That job was so simple to me and working those 17 hours didn't bother me; at the end of the day I wanted to go home because I was sick of listening to everyone else fuck up, not because I wanted to drop from exhaustion. Now? I just feel fantastic. I'm home after hanging out with Michael and his roommate Ramon for the past two days and accompanying them on their sailboats. I realized that I should have gone today as well since the weather was perfect for it, but I will have many an opportunity to do so. Same bullshit at home as always, but I have a feeling that soon enough it'll be done and over with because I will leave and I will not return. Oh that excites me so much to just think about! :D Comment?

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